I feel that since starting college in the City I have been stifled creatively and cut off from the world. This is very strange considering I live in the City that never sleeps and is the mecca for information, fashion, movies, celebs…everything. Everything is here, yet I feel so disconnected. I try to gather information about world happenings from random newspapers, clips on the computer, and other things. We don’t have a common television here in the Brothel (the nickname for my dorm) so I can’t even catch the nightly news on a daily basis. This is highly upsetting and I am looking forward to going home for the summer for the sheer fact that I can read the paper everyday….among other things.
Despite all of this, I still love being here. Living with 7 other girls has proved to be challenging, but not impossible. I’ve had a steady workload of papers and tests and projects this semester and have been mentally stimulated by my courses far more than I could have ever imagined. And, somehow, in the midst of all of it, I’ve made a solid group of friends. This was proven last Friday when I turned 20 (scary, I know!) and gallivanted around the West Village and Union Square with a bunch of people that I have met this semester. They are all great and it’s comforting to know that I have finally found a place I belong. Sappy, yet true.
However, I want to go home. Like now. Like yesterday. Like last night at 3:00 as I struggled to finish yet another draft of my Shakespeare essay. I want to go to the beach and play in the sand and babysit and go to the library and read and hang out with my best friend that I miss so much and my other compadres. I want out. I love it here, but I want to go home.
20 more days. I can do it.
“Our fear of death is like our fear that summer will be short, but when we have had our swing of pleasure, our fill of fruit and our swelter of heat, we say we have had our day.”-Ralph Waldo Emerson (American poet and essayist)
Fore longingly waiting for warmth,
mimi
2 Comments
April 28, 2009 at 7:01 PM
Ahhhhh! I love the new layout! what a good surprise!!!
April 29, 2009 at 6:50 PM
Thanks! As soon as the summer comes, I will be back to Blogging regularly. It keeps my writing focused. Thirteen more days, my love, thirteen more days til the beach and summer and fun!! Miss you!